He is worth it

What is the meaning of my life? This is the question I have been wrestling with for a while now. What am I created to do? Who am I living for? What am I living for?

I want to be at the point in my life where I am at full and total surrender to Him ALL THE TIME. Not just here and there with certian things, but with EVERYTHING, big and small. Nothing else. My life is not about me, it is about Him and he can do what he wants with me. He is leading me to Thailand for 2 1/2 months and then who knows where next. [Personally, I am hopeing and prayng to go back to Haiti!!!] God is such a good God. Really! It is crazy! I look at myself and think, wow, why do I not trust him more!!!!!!!! I think my problem comes in one little word. Change.

Change is hard for me. I like to be comfortable knowing what is going on and not be placed in situations where I don't know what is really going to happen. With changes comes a lot of unknowns. It is something that I feel like God is constantely teaching me about. To be totally honest, it really sucks. There is always so much that I feel God is teaching me and trying to show me. I am just so blind and deaf...it is stupid. This time though I think I am finally getting the message, hopefully. He is reminding me about even though it seems like everything around me is changing, He isn't and I am never alone. I NEED TO TRUST!

The end of junior year is just around the corner and that is pretty scary! It has been such a fast year. A good year though. I have done so much and wow, has God taught me a lot! He has taken me to Haiti and back and has gotten me through a really tough year of school. He has provided beyond my imagination financially...HE HAS BEEN FAITHFUL! Even though change is coming, I have no idea what I going to do about summer job wise, I struggle with not being in Haiti every single day, student teaching is super intimidating, going to Bangkok for 10 weeks on my own can be slightly scary...IT DOESN'T MATTER! God is faithful!! He understands....HE IS WITH ME AND WILL NEVER LET ME FALL! These verses just came to mind and what a great reminder.

Hebrews 4:15-16 "For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathsize wiht out weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are-- yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may recieve mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need."

ALL I AM FOR HIM. That is why I am here. He is worth it!!

No more looking at all the waves...time to start looking at the Lord. He is mighty to save. He is GOD! He's got the whole world in his hands...even Haiti too... I need to remind myself of that every day. Who is it that I serve? The God of the whole universe who holds everything in his hands, yet is my daddy who loves me?!?!?!? THANK YOU LORD!!

Update on Thailand:
I am still working on booking my plane ticket for Bangkok. If you could all please pray for the price, that is goes down! That would be great.
Not too much to report, things are coming together slowly. I will keep you updated as things happen. I have been in contact with people over there on a regular basis and things are rough right now (if you have been following some of the news about Thailand), but nothing that God cannot handle!!!! Just please pray for Thailand. I still have completely peace that this is right where God wants me and I will follow Him where he leads me!!

In the mean time you can go to this website and see the school I will teaching at :)
http://www.icsbangkok.com/

Thanks everyone! I hope after reading this blog you feel encouraged to press forward in this race and realize how amazing God is and how much he loves you. Also, please keep praying for Haiti. It is muddy and rainy there. Pray for Jasmine and Greg and the children. They need our prayers.

TO GOD BE THE GLORY,
Katelyn