Leogane

Here is a link to watch to see just how offal it is down in Leogane where the orphanage and nursing school is. Rigan is in the video!!!!!!!!!! BEWARE: it is pretty graphic!
http://www.cnn.com/video/#/video/world/2010/01/18/penhaul.haiti.forgotten.leogane.cnn?hpt=C2

Wow...it sure has been a long week and weekend. Right now, I am sitting on my bed just processing through once again how much has happened. It is hard at times, especially at night, to fall asleep, so I decided to blog! What a novelty! haha.

My heart just continues to break for Jasmine and Greg and the children, as well as for all the Haitians, but especially these people whom I have gotten to know since November 2009. At times it has been hard to move on with life. I have a lot of other responsibilities and what not and a lot of the time it is hard to keep doing all of it when I know what is going on down in Haiti, or more because of the lack of information I know about what is going on down in Haiti. But I have great support from friends and family. My friend Kate told me "You need to keep going FOR THEM!" And she is right! At times though too, I just don't understand why them and not me, but I guess God is working on my lack of trust in who he is.

God is God, I am not! Which is a good thing, but a hard thing for me to understand. I do trust God, but I still hold on to things? Sorry, but that is not trust. I desire to trust, but why can't I???? This has really been a test for me and I want to pass, but WOW, TALK ABOUT HARD!! Do I trust that God is with Jasmine and Greg and all the children? Do I trust he will protect Tim? Do I trust that he will provide for his people? Do I trust he KNOWS WHAT HE IS DOING?? I mean he is God for crying aloud, he knows all!

Isaiah 55:8-10

8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.
9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 So is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

God is much bigger than we can ever even imagine and that is crazy! This passage is reminding me of that! God never, ever, EVER breaks his promises and this passage is also a promise!

Daddy, Abba, Father,
Be with the people in Haiti tonight, Lord. Be with Anika and all the other orphanes. Comfort them with your unfailing love and compassion. May they feel you. Give Jasmine and Greg strength and hope. Protect them, send angels to watch over all of them. Be with Tim and Lisa and everyone else flying down tomorrow. God, go before them. Protect them and POUR out your love, strength and joy onto them. As they step off the plane tomorrow and see and smell the horrors may you give them all they need. Help us all here as well. Comfort those who need it, give discernment in many different situations where it is need and may we REJOICE IN WHO YOU ARE, as you command us to do! Break our hearts to help and give in whatever way we can! May you be glorified. Be with us all, we NEED YOU. WE ARE DESPERATE FOR YOU!!
AMEN

Goodnight all! I need to be up in like 5 hours, so I better try to get some sleep!

God is good,
Katelyn