This season I am in is one of the hardest by far in my life...I now realize why God had me go through some of the things these past 4 years, but it has taken me months to realize this. These past 3 months have been filled with so much sadness, depression, bad attitudes, and just things that are not good at all. I lost myself in the world. I was looking at the world and allowing myself to believe lie after lie about what I should be doing with my "life" and so on. Well, I am done.
I am in a difficult transition in my life, moving from college student to college grad and to be honest, it is harder than I thought it would be. First of all, I can barely handle change in general, but when it is big change, wow, that is tough. Leaving college, and the safety and comfort it brings along with a great community of friends, is extremely difficult. Not only that, but my heart is in so many different places from Haiti to Thailand. It is hard to understand where on this earth my place is. I am waiting...that's where God has me, the most difficult place one could be. But see, what He revealed to me today was this, "Katelyn, I have you right where I want you." It hit me like a brick up side my head. Instantly tears fell from my eyes. I have been fighting with him, screaming at him, telling him to show me where to go and here is where he wants me?!? Here in Minnesota! I can only be where God wants me! How awesome is that?!?! The amount of peace that overcame me is unexplainable. I love God so much and I am always saying I will follow Him where ever he leads...He is leading me to stay put. I praise Him for speaking to me. He really is there. He really does love each of us so much more than we can ever imagine. No matter the season of life, He is still God and we have a reason to sing and praise His great Name! I don't have all the answers by far, but I have a God who does.
My heart is still in Haiti and I have faith in God that in HIS timing He will lead me back down when He sees the timing is right. I will be a teacher whether in Haiti, Thailand, Wisconsin or Minnesota...working in the inner city or suburbs, daycare or school...My life is not mine, but God's.
Thank you to all of you who have helped me through my extremely, rough, dry season of life. I am now choosing to drink from the springs of life! I know my God has great plans for me and that is why I have hope! He has given me back my passion for Himself! Thank you Lord! My eyes are on Him, not this world. He is my everything and I will adore HIM!
Into marvelous light I'm running! :)
All I am for Him,
Katelyn
1 Corinthians 1: 25-31
"Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men. For consider your calling, brethren, that there were not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble; but God has chosen the foolish things of the world to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to shame the things which are strong, and the base things of the world and the despised God has chosen, the things that are not, so that he may nullify the things that are, so that no man may boast before God. But by His doing you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, and righteousness and sanctification, and redemption so that, just as it is written, 'Let him who boasts, boast in the Lord'."
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